Feeling suffocated by the silence of the night, of the vaccum in life. Crying in the middle of the night, convulsive sobs that noone can hear. Because noone is around. Feeling lonely, wishing for somebody to be troubled by your pain. Not wanting to be left all by yourself to handle every damn thing that comes your way.
Giving up on life, wanting to kill yourself and attain liberation from all Maladies. Then suddenly remembering all your big ambitions, a newfound love for them welling up inside yourself, suddenly becoming too selfish to throw away your most cherished things, becoming hopeful again, very slowly falling in love with life again......
Reminded of things to be done the next day, all the meloncholy vanishing in a moment as if it were just a maudlin fit. Wiping your tears away, swollen-up eyes stinging, head aching like its going to crack open under the Pressure. Washing your face, humming yourself to sleep, feeling relieved, peaceful after the catharsis......
Giving up on life, wanting to kill yourself and attain liberation from all Maladies. Then suddenly remembering all your big ambitions, a newfound love for them welling up inside yourself, suddenly becoming too selfish to throw away your most cherished things, becoming hopeful again, very slowly falling in love with life again......
Reminded of things to be done the next day, all the meloncholy vanishing in a moment as if it were just a maudlin fit. Wiping your tears away, swollen-up eyes stinging, head aching like its going to crack open under the Pressure. Washing your face, humming yourself to sleep, feeling relieved, peaceful after the catharsis......
